I'm Really Not That Upset About It

by Stars Hollow

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released March 28, 2016

All songs written and performed by Stars Hollow
Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Andrew Ferren
Artwork by Alexis Politz

Sorry Dad Records (C) 2016



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Track Name: Embarrassed
I always bite off more than I can chew / Leaving me to choke in front of you / I'm embarrassed by everything that I do / I don't know how to change / I just know how to be safe / I was always afraid to climb up trees / So I'll just keep spinning / Lonely and incomplete / While all my friends are high above me / Don't mind me, I'm just dizzy / You know where I'll be / Planting flowers under that tree / Or burying my past down at Burn's Cemetery / But I'm really not that upset about it / I'm really just kind of a wreck without it / I'm really not that upset about it / But I'm really not any better without it.
Track Name: Mattering
I'm living in the uncertainty of fair weather memories / Constantly asking if I really remember or if it's just from home movies / I'm absent minded, present but lifeless / And when I speak it's nothing of substance / So I started drinking because I thought I'd have something to say / It just made me drunk and want to throw up / And I'm still awkward and I don't think that will change / I'm stuck in my ways, but that's okay / It's not that bad, I'm just sick of feeling like I'm never in a solid state of mattering / You see right through me / I don't want to live in fair weather memories / I want to know it's more than home movies / And it fucking scares me / It fucking scares me / That I'm never in a solid state of mattering
Track Name: Cicada
I feel like lately it's always raining / It leaves me drenched and soaking wet / And there's no time to get dry because I'm never warned about the worst storms / I can't form words to say what I need / Shallow footprints covered up by everything / But I still try to hold it tight / Everything feels like goodbye / So I avoid it all the time / Pinned to the clotheslines where I hang out to try / Stuck in place to shrink in the sunshine / My skin is shrinking, it doesn't feel like mine / It doesn't fit me right / So I'll shed off my skin and sing the summers away / Because it rained all through April, but flowers never came
Track Name: Drinking Buddies
So if I tear at the seams and bleed / Would you help keep my wounds clean? / Am I just here for the intake of cheap beer and college shame? / This is not what I wanted / So fucking stressed and exhausted / Guess I got what I wanted / Had some friends but I lost them
Track Name: Cloud Envy
I wanna die laughing / Falling into a pile of leaves / All along not knowing a bed of nails was underneath / But I know that it's hard to wake up in the morning / I'll always fall short of what's expected of me / But I'll be the finest shell that a casket has ever seen / Did you ever see? / Did you ever see me? / I wanna die lonely because I've never been good at goodbyes / Always just floating along / Wishing I was just in the sky / I have cloud envy / But the way I feel swallows me / Choking me down, gnawing it's teeth / Until I'm asleep six feet deep / Gasping for air, I can't breathe / I know it shouldn't be / But I know it's meant to be my cemetery